Thursday, May 22, 2014
"Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it."-Confucius "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched-they must be felt with the heart."-Helen Keller "The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mode but the true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman grows with the passing years."-Audrey Hepburn Beauty. The definition varies from person to person. The places, people and things that we find beautiful vary greatly from person to person. So, why does there seem to be such an obsession with what is beautiful? Women in particular fall into this trap most easily. So many of us link our self worth to how beautiful we are perceived to be by others. I am guilty of this myself. There are very few times in my life that I have felt beautiful. My family tried to bolster my self esteem. They tried to help me realize that there was something beautiful about me. But, I couldn't or maybe wouldn't see it. I let the opinions and perceptions of others drive how I felt about myself. I let the taunting and whispers of my peers bore into my heart and soul. Sometimes I tried to "fit in", only to be mocked and sneered at for my efforts. Most of the time I didn't try- I still felt the sting of their comments but I tried to act like I didn't care. And so I never really felt accepted and beautiful. Even when I fell in love with my husband and had my children. Even after all the times they have told me I am beautiful. I never let myself believe it could be true that anyone would see me that way. So how do I change my perspective? How do I look past all of my perceived flaws and focus on the things that are positive? I don't really know. I want to. I want to be a confident person. I want to feel better about myself. I want to believe the people who tell me I am beautiful. I just don't know how to accomplish this feat. Sometimes I think: If I just lose weight- I will feel beautiful. If I had better hair- I will feel beautiful. If I dressed fashionably- I will feel beautiful. Then I realize, all of that may make me more attractive to others but is it "true beauty"? Or is it just a mask presented to the world in order to try and "fit in". So, will I ever really feel beautiful? I don't know. History tells me that I will always struggle with the way I see myself. I can only hope that somehow the beauty I want others to see will shine through in more important ways. I hope that people will see beauty in the family I have raised. In the marriage I am so proud to be a part of. In the things I try to do for others. In the art I enjoy creating. And maybe someday I will feel really beautiful. "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye."-Miss Piggy, The Muppets.
Monday, April 21, 2014
Okay... so I'm not a "real" artist. It's not like I am toiling away to create something every day. Nor do I rely on my art to make a living. And believe me, there is some art out there that I just don't get. I know art is in the eye of the beholder but, sometimes I look at art pieces and think I must need glasses. I don't always see it. I'm not sure how my art would be catergorized. I assume it would be considered more commercial. Something that's geared more towards the masses. Whatever it is... it makes me happy. Well, most of the time anyway. As I have mentioned before, I am my own worst critic. So I tend to pick apart my work pretty harshly. I often throw away projects because I just don't feel like it's working. But in general the act of creating an art project feeds my soul and lifts my spirits in a way few things do. It helps me escape the negative and even helps me when I need to work through something. So, I may be the only one who ever really enjoys the art I create. But, that's okay. It makes me happy. And we all need something that makes us happy.
Saturday, April 12, 2014
Thursday, April 3, 2014
For reasons unknown the idea that I need to become my own personal cheerleader is stuck in my head today. God knows, I am not naturally inclined to "toot my own horn" or even acknowledge my own accomplishments. As a matter of fact, I tend to do quite the opposite and down play what I have done. I don't take compliments well. I am my own worst critic. But, today I started to wonder why I can't take just a moment and be proud of myself. I know it's possible to be proud of an accomplishment without sounding conceited. I have many family members and friends who have that confidence in themselves and I never feel that they are bragging or trying to belittle anyone else by doing so. So, why not try to be proud of myself once and a while? What's wrong with that? So today, for just a minute I am going to focus on one thing I have done that I am very proud of. That thing is this: